this life.

Its been especially nuts this week.  Well....at least in my head.  I feel so anxious.  Megan's baby is due this week.  Which means a lot of things.  Things I can't wrap my head around yet.  Things I dont want to wrap my head around yet.  I dont know what to think anymore, all I know is that the only thing I have to give is my love.  I have to trust that it has the power to do more than me right now.  Its all I have.

School is going well, its just getting busier and harder.  I stressed myself out so much that today around 8 at night I realized I hadnt eaten at all.  Yesterday I only ate one meal - a bagel.  I forget to feed myself sometimes I am so immersed in this place.  I have to work at finding my balance again.  I havent been so good at it lately.  I'm anxious for Thanksgiving break.  And my birthday!  I'm getting another tattoo for my 18th this year.  Its a phrase in gaelic meaning, "peace walks on love's road."  It means a lot to me and the script is beautiful.  I havent decided quite where to put it yet.  I want it somewhere I can see it to remind myself to always center myself around peace and love.  its probably going on my wrist somewhere.  Dunno yet.

Other than that things have been pretty normal.  I've been reading Twilight books like a maniac.  At first I was so skeptical.  Vampire books?  COME ON...pshhh.  But after being forced to read the first, I had to read the second.  I am now on the third.  And I'm wishing that I could have an Edward Cullen all to myself.  Gives a whole new meaning to the phrase "bite me."  ....yes please.

:)